Doubting is part of life, it makes us think twice before we speak, before we act and before we move. I like that, it reminds me that I’m still human.
As I write doubt covers me. First, because English is not my first language, therefore, I’m always afraid of making mistakes. I would like to say that I’ve set that thought aside, but I haven’t. Then, because I am a teacher and that makes me more vulnerable to my own review, proofreading and to the assessment eye I’ve developed throughout my teaching years.
I am about to finish my second quarter in my PhD program. I have learned a lot. I’ve met a lot of people, I’ve built close friendships, and I’ve traveled more. This has helped me to continue. A dear friend has been a great companion and sidekick throughout our learning experience. We’ve suffered, been angry in class, laughed and found out that we have strengths as well as faults to improve. I believe this has helped us grow as teachers. I am thankful for that.
I like the phrase, “When in doubt, doubt the doubt.” I will, and I will set it aside. I have to look at my pros and cons and make the best decision, or at least the one that will contribute to my growth. Planning is part of my teaching profession, even so, I tend to improvise. I’ve always thought, life isn’t static, therefore, change is always welcome.
So, as I close these thoughts and ideas, I come to the conclusion that I am the only one who can make the decision. I’ve talked about it, written about it and as I tend to do, dwelled on it. Well, enough is enough. Today, I am free to decide and that is the best feeling anyone can have.